Gone...

New xanga

http://www.xanga.com/u0luminax0u

(yea juss like my aim sn -_-)

This was meant to be a Valentine's day xanga entry but I worked like a bitch from 4 to almost eleven sumthin... o geebus wut happens when u need money lol.. (btw I m quitin)

Alot of ppl posted entries about love and what not... I'd post sumthin in the area too but I kno it's just gonna get me all depressed in the end.. but why? Why do I always have to be sad when I think about love.. why could it not be satisfying? that I dunno... but one thing is sure.. I have been in love..

Being no stranger to love and all that might be related.. I must say that I still don't quite understand it.. one might ask how I would discribe it but I know I wouldn't be able to answer that... like discribing the clear blue sky to one who is blind and explain the taste of sweet to one who can not taste.. it is impossible to discribe love as it is a feeling which we all have a different prespective on... the only thing that is certain is that we all feel it... so what defines true love? that is like asking which shade of red is plain red.. in that we all have a different answer... In conclusion.. LOVE is undefined but it exsist in all of us.. it has more power then ur average super hero.. it could make u laugh make u cry make u happy make u sad.. throws you into an endless passion or a jealousy rage... give life and kill too.. such a powerful tool isn't it? it is delicate yet it is powerful.. o how ironic...

Love is simple to me.. no need to be very complex tho it could appear to be sometimes.. love to me is trust.. trust in that the other person would not damage ur most vularable side... would not betray such a trust and such a bond.. love needs not a reason to exsist but the sole purpose to bring two souls together... True love to me exist only at the most natural state of people.. when they are not trying to pretend to be something they are not... to be a fantasy to one another and to be a great dream come true in an almost surreal way but in reality.. and that is Romance... And a word of advice is.. If you can find one person among the 6 billion.. who you can trust with anything and everything... who you just be yourself to with out a doubt... who's words means more than anyone else's.. and who you are willing to climb over the edge walk that extra mile and even do the unthinkable for just to see that person smile.. If you can find such a person who can feel the same way too.. you better grab on and dun even think about letting go..  

(I love you becaue you're my dream come true... I love you because I love how I am when I m with you... and so I dedicate the song to you.. even if forever turns into never.. for you never just ain't that long)

It's time for that young'n entry... o love.. what does it mean.. blah blah blah.. I still remember.. high school.. which wasn't too long ago... I still remember a lil boi meeting and trying to understand the world... thinkin bout gurls and tryin to get laid before high skool is ova.. dealin with HS drama.. frontin backin people left and right.. drinkin and passin out on a skool nite.. o I still remember it all too well... as if it was 5 mins ago...

btw i told someone she is the love of my life... and I am being completely serious.. no i wasn't drunk or high.. mayb insane but not under the influence of anything... (and yea this is kinna the main part of the entry).. good luck for me?

edit:

This is chrstine's survey cuz she has never done one before... and I have no life so bare ith me lol

Series One -- General Info:
-- Name: Christine Hoang
Birth date: 01.02.86
-- Birthplace: California, USA
-- Current Location: Hicksville, VA
-- Eye Color: Brown but i wear color contacts
-- Hair Color: Black with brown dye 
-- Righty or Lefty: Left out
-- Zodiac Sign: Capricon
-- Innie or Outtie: INNIE

Series Two - Describe...
-- Your heritage: Eden girl
-- The shoes you wore today: some Nike
-- Your hair: shoulder length
-- Your weakness: Pineapples
-- Your fears: spiders, dead ppl, ghost stories from Rico
-- Your perfect pizza: CHEESE PLZ
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: Buying a big big house

 Series Three - What is...
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: I dunno.. (that's the phrase)
-- Your thoughts first waking up: potty
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Smile
-- Your best physical feature: I love my lips
-- Your bedtime: Whenever I m tired
-- Your most missed memory: Childhood with Tommy and Billy

Series Four - You prefer...
-- Pepsi or coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King:  Micky D
-- Single or group dates: Single
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: haven't tried Cappuccino
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers

Series Five - Do you...
-- Smoke: No
-- Cuss: When I m mad
-- Sing well:  No.. but I was in the chior 
--Have/had a crush(es): well yea
-- Want to go to college: Yes
-- Want to get married: Yea
--Type with fingers on the right keys: Yea
-- Think you're attractive: Noooooooooooooooooooo
-- Think you're a health freak: Heck no
-- Get along with your parents: Yes when I sleep at home
-- Play an instrument:  Yea

 Series Six - In the past month, did/have you...
-- Drank alcohol: No
-- Smoke(d): No
-- Done a drug: No
-- Go on a date: Yea
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
-- Eaten sushi: Yea
-- Been on stage: No
-- Been dumped: No
-- Gone skating: No
-- Made homemade cookies: sigh No
-- Been in love: let's skip this one -_- 
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: No 
-- Stolen anything: Nyea.....I just forgot to pay for it.. lol opps

Series Seven - Have you ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nope
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No
-- Been caught: No
-- Been called a tease: Yes
-- Gotten beaten up: By my parents yea
-- Shoplifted: like I said i kind of forgot to pay.. haha.. opps
-- If so, did you get caught: I look too innocent.. *smile*
-- Changed who you were to fit in: umm yes

 Series Eight - The future:
-- Age you hope to be married: 28
-- Number of Children: 2
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: o wow.. big.. i dun wana go in details..
-- How do you want to die: history makin
-- Where you want to go to college: VCU
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Interior design

 Series Nine - The Opposite sex:
-- Best eye color? I dunno.. I like all eye colors..
-- Best hair color? juss asa long as it's highlights i dun care wut color..
-- Short or long hair? short
-- Best height:  taller than me
--Best weight: not fat
-- Best first date location: Exotic Beach
-- Best first kiss location: under a palm tree

 Series Ten - Number of:
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: My mom and sister
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: Zero
-- Number of boys I have kissed: Three 
-- Number of boyfriends I've had: Two
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: Zero
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
-- Number of CDs that I own: no idea.. more than 20
-- Number of piercings: Two
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Zero
-- Number of scars on my body: about 8
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: Nothing!

hollerr. :] this is annie, (all the way from thailand) updating for rico cuz im bored. rico needs to change his profile pic, it's old & he looks like he got hit by a wtf stick. forreals! ;] jk. anyways im coming home very soon! thanks to everybody who helped me out, i really appreciate it. you guys are awesome! :D anyways i don't really have much to say anymore.. so i guess im going to stop here, harhar.

love, annie <3

p.s. omg, i was reading over the entry... holy shit im turning into a fob! harhar. oh well, whatever. nothing wrong with that, right? ;]

Edit:

Valentine's day is surely a great day for those who have found their other half.. but what of those who haven't.. I dedicate this poem to those who haven't... exactly found their other half yet... (a poem about love that's.. not so romentic)

Merry Valentine's day

Love at First Sight

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still

Since they'd never met before, they're sure
that there'd been nothing between them.
But what's the word from the streets, staircases, hallways—
perhaps they've passed each other a million times?

I want to ask them
if they don't remember—
a moment face to face
in some revolving door?
perhaps a "sorry" muttered in a crowd?
a curt "wrong number" caught in the receiver?
but I know the answer.
No, they don't remember

They'd be amazed to hear
that Chance has been toying with them
now for years.

Not quite ready yet
to become their Destiny,
it pushed them close, drove them apart,
it barred their path,
stifling a laugh,
and then leaped aside.

There were signs and signals,
even if they couldn't read them yet.
Perhaps three years ago
or just last Tuesday
a certain leaf fluttered
from one shoulder to another?
Something was dropped and then picked up.
Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished
into childhood's thicket?

There were doorknobs and doorbells
where one touch had covered another
beforehand.
Suitcases checked and standing side by side.
One night, perhaps, the same dream,
grown hazy by morning.

Every beginning
is only a sequel, after all,
and the book of events
is always open halfway through.

By Wislawa Szymborska

(makes u wonder if love at first sight is first sight at all... all the things in time... time will reveal)